Victor Wayne

 What is the purpose of life? Ok so the answer for this question actually varies depending on the each of us . Purpose changes when time changes like, when we were young there was a thing called ambition . Is ambition and purpose the same thing? , well a google search says they are different but as per my understanding , ambition is a sense of wanting to achieve or be something and purpose is that something i should be doing . how does this answer the question you may think , it doesn't . Am saying like when i was young i wanted to be a soldier and it evolved to an astronaut and when i hit my teenage i wanted to be a 3d artist because i loved sci-fi movies and superhero movies a lot. I felt more ambitious when i was 18. Now?, nothing like i lost all those ambitions . I started lot of things , i learnt  lot of things but now i can't. I feel lost , in general the purpose of life as i know is , study well , get good marks, be healthy , get  a degree, get a good paying job , ...

The heart wants peace, The heart wants friendship,  The heart wants closure,  The heart wants to be happy,  The heart wants rest,  The heart wants forgiveness,  The heart wants to fight,  The heart wants to love,  The heart wants to be loved,  The heart wants to sit and look at the night sky,  The heart wants to adore,  The heart wants to make memories,  The heart wants a cold coffee,  The heart wants to have a long conversation,  The heart wants to laugh,  The heart wants to be free, The heart wants intimacy, The heart wants to be enough, The heart wants to achieve dreams,  The heart wants comfort, The heart wants a hug, The heart wants to be independent, The heart wants to hangout with friends, The heart wants to cry, The heart wants to talk a lot, The heart wants someone to trust, The heart wants honesty, The heart wants to care, The heart wants to go to the moon, The heart wants to listen to music, The heart ...

what does anxious means?  "afraid or nervous especially about what may happen  :  feeling anxiety". as per google .  I think it is true because i do feel afraid of things that could go wrong like all the time.  Academic effects :   Being anxious has affected my academics in such ways like when i try to take seminars or in a situation where i have to face the fear of answering out loud and worrying that i could be wrong . Even though i feel confident enough to do a presentation ,  i end up doing it less than i wanted to .Even though i know the answer for the question the professor asks, i wont answer and it ends up being the correct answer sometimes. I mean small things like this doesn't matter but when it comes to things like a Paper presentation or taking a seminar or something crucial , i get anxious . This can be solved, because when i get used to  that specific environment or people i feel like i can be able to avoid being anxious to a go...

  So first i think everyone knows what's a comic con if not all good , it's a convention for people who have interests on movies, games, shows and mainly comics . First i knew about comic con is when i got into social media , at that time i was a big MCU fan and i knew about san-diego comic con . Lot of studios showcase their thing like  movies, games, comics or anything . That's all what i knew about comic con , i love to watch the live streams of the event and obviously i don't watch everything because i only knew few franchises . So eventually one day i found about this comic con in India and i've been following their page ever since , i thought about attending but the locations were too far for me so i didn't  . Luckily this time they organized in one of the closest city and i knew about it , told the bois on discord asked "Yo can we go to comic con bengaluru" and they were like "nah man idk ". At first i wasn't planning on going but ...

 If you haven't listened to 'Vogel Im Kafig' yet then you're missing out something beautiful and depressing . Vogel Im Kafig is from 'Shingeki no Kyojin' also known as 'Attack on Titan'  anime. I love this show so much , it's definitely  in my top all time shows or movies list. The music they did for the show is also phenomenal . The very first time i listened to it was in EP 1 , it was so good . So i searched it up and listened to the full version , which blew me away .  You can separate the music as three parts , one is like living a pleasant and happy life . Two is sudden disaster, your life  becomes sad and  depressed , you're suffering and desperate for at least a little bit of happiness . Third is where you fight ! , you keep moving forward , all those wounds but you still keep going strong and not giving up.  I felt this without the lyrics for the first time , when i saw the lyrics it's the same . I listen to it everyday , this song mo...

So for the past 2 years i have been living with my parents in a different city, helping in their Business. Well i did not imagine my adulthood to go like this but you know it's "Life" things won't go as you planned unless you're Batman xd . I got lucky to have such a great friends at my college but when i moved here it's totally gone, i don't know how to make friends and there were no options except for me to be online most of the time . At first i was so sad and frustrated that am all alone, yes my friends were talking to me on call but it's just so difficult to meet them in person . And i kinda got used to it , i go online to play games , surf instagram and youtube , etc . I even went to omegele to talk to people when am bored , surprisingly there was some actually good people who was interested in a good chat rather than some horny people and bots! . so eventually a year passed and i got into Facebook after a while because of my friend , he gained l...

There are two kinds of people, Atheists who doesn't believe God  exists and Theists who believes in God. You can see both of them are fighting online or in person among your friends or family. People have their own opinions and perspective on life.  Am i an atheist or theist ? Well i say am both , why? . Because i believe some higher being created us . Everything has a beginning , whatever you take as example there is a beginning. So someone who is that powerful what do you call that being as? yes God or Creator  simply . Nobody has seen God, so i don't know who is that powerful being , until then i will call them as God  . So God exists but why does  innocent people die and allow evil things happen in this world . I think God  doesn't work like that because we Humans are the root cause of many things that happens . If god just does whatever the people pray for then what's the point of life !?.  End of the day what matters is that we thrive for a happy...