Victor Wayne

Emotions, they play a big part in our life. Emotions comes in all shapes,  like when you feel listening to that new song that hits you in your feels.. like when you eat a biryani on a dull day..  like when life gets unpredictable and fucks up everything that you planned to do.. like when you see that person for the first time and falling for them... like when you hold hands... like when going through those sleepless nights thinking why??..  like when you question yourself  "why am I even alive?'  like when you don't want to loose them but you end up anyway.. like when you do something productive... like when you do so much but end up getting disappointed.. like when you think of reasons why you are not enough.. like when you want to be a better son to your parents.. like when you get angry at the world for the way that it is.. like when you cook something on your own... like when you go out with your friends after years... like when you have an existential crisi...

What is a Battle?!  Everything!! Anything can be a battle,  waking up in the morning can be a battle, preparing the mind for the day can be a battle,  getting on the transit can be a battle,  paying attention to the classes can be a battle,  finding peace can be a battle,  staying positive can be a battle, trying not to be scared of closure or attachment can be a battle, resisting the burning desire to spend time with them can be a battle, trying not to hurt them can be a battle, not to overthink can be a battle, letting go can be a battle, moving on can be a battle, trying to sleep can be a battle, fighting yourself for being scared of rejection can be a battle, trying to be better can be a battle, showing emotions can be a battle, hiding your feelings can be a battle,  being consistent can be a battle, wanting to be a good son can be a battle, wanting to connect with them can be a battle, wanting to love again can be a battle, keeping that fire going...

 What is the purpose of life? Ok so the answer for this question actually varies depending on the each of us . Purpose changes when time changes like, when we were young there was a thing called ambition . Is ambition and purpose the same thing? , well a google search says they are different but as per my understanding , ambition is a sense of wanting to achieve or be something and purpose is that something i should be doing . how does this answer the question you may think , it doesn't . Am saying like when i was young i wanted to be a soldier and it evolved to an astronaut and when i hit my teenage i wanted to be a 3d artist because i loved sci-fi movies and superhero movies a lot. I felt more ambitious when i was 18. Now?, nothing like i lost all those ambitions . I started lot of things , i learnt  lot of things but now i can't. I feel lost , in general the purpose of life as i know is , study well , get good marks, be healthy , get  a degree, get a good paying job , ...

The heart wants peace, The heart wants friendship,  The heart wants closure,  The heart wants to be happy,  The heart wants rest,  The heart wants forgiveness,  The heart wants to fight,  The heart wants to love,  The heart wants to be loved,  The heart wants to sit and look at the night sky,  The heart wants to adore,  The heart wants to make memories,  The heart wants a cold coffee,  The heart wants to have a long conversation,  The heart wants to laugh,  The heart wants to be free, The heart wants intimacy, The heart wants to be enough, The heart wants to achieve dreams,  The heart wants comfort, The heart wants a hug, The heart wants to be independent, The heart wants to hangout with friends, The heart wants to cry, The heart wants to talk a lot, The heart wants someone to trust, The heart wants honesty, The heart wants to care, The heart wants to go to the moon, The heart wants to listen to music, The heart ...

what does anxious means?  "afraid or nervous especially about what may happen  :  feeling anxiety". as per google .  I think it is true because i do feel afraid of things that could go wrong like all the time.  Academic effects :   Being anxious has affected my academics in such ways like when i try to take seminars or in a situation where i have to face the fear of answering out loud and worrying that i could be wrong . Even though i feel confident enough to do a presentation ,  i end up doing it less than i wanted to .Even though i know the answer for the question the professor asks, i wont answer and it ends up being the correct answer sometimes. I mean small things like this doesn't matter but when it comes to things like a Paper presentation or taking a seminar or something crucial , i get anxious . This can be solved, because when i get used to  that specific environment or people i feel like i can be able to avoid being anxious to a go...

  So first i think everyone knows what's a comic con if not all good , it's a convention for people who have interests on movies, games, shows and mainly comics . First i knew about comic con is when i got into social media , at that time i was a big MCU fan and i knew about san-diego comic con . Lot of studios showcase their thing like  movies, games, comics or anything . That's all what i knew about comic con , i love to watch the live streams of the event and obviously i don't watch everything because i only knew few franchises . So eventually one day i found about this comic con in India and i've been following their page ever since , i thought about attending but the locations were too far for me so i didn't  . Luckily this time they organized in one of the closest city and i knew about it , told the bois on discord asked "Yo can we go to comic con bengaluru" and they were like "nah man idk ". At first i wasn't planning on going but ...